random stuff

For those of you wanting to know what's up - I'm going in for the radiation stuff next week - the 17th and 18th. Josh will post more details later. My TSH levels have shot up so high that I am exhausted and emotional and having to do this frustrating diet where I really can't eat anything, so I don't like to think about it all or it makes me cry. I have to be really good about the diet or the radiation won't work as well and then I have to do surgery and radiation again. I'm not going to do that. The struggle right now is to not let my TSH levels get any higher than they are, but get through the two weeks on the low iodine diet.

Anyway, the kids realize that mom is a little off and have been pretty clingy lately. James is so cute though. He was singing a song the other day from Sid the Science Kid. He was telling me about Sid and how Sid loved his mom and thought his mom was cool. So I asked him, do you love your mom? He smiled and said yes. Then I said, and you think your mom is cool too huh.... He said no, my mom is cute, my dad is cool and awesome. I thought it was pretty cute.

I've also lost weight with everything so Andrew was asking me the other day why I am a little mom now. He said he is going to be able to be bigger than me faster now. He was pretty excited about that. I'm finally about the same size I was before I had James, which is great, but not the way I planned on getting back into my fun clothes. Before James I was exercising all the time, I was going to a Body Pump class at the gym (I LOVE that class)...I was in good shape. Then James came and I wasn't sleeping much, cause he didn't, ended up in the hospital with pneumonia and everything has just seemed to go downhill from there. Now five surgeries later, I'm hoping that I won't have any more and I can start getting back to my same old healthy self. That's the plan. Anyway, I've been resting a lot. Just walking up the stairs right now makes my legs shaky and I have to lay down. Josh will post technical details later, cause he does that kind of thing.

Josh has been totally spoiling me though. It's been so nice to have such a nice room put together with love from my incredible friends and an amazing husband who spoils me. There's nothing like a little bump in your life to let you know that you have lots of friends that love you and an amazing family. I'm very very grateful for all of you.

I need to post pics of our halloween. We had a Halloween party with Josh's family early Oct, which was great. Josh was a vampire, I was a vampiress, Connor was a rockstar, Emmalee a witch, Andrew a football player, and James was the big bad wolf. They were all so cute. Halloween night I really didn't feel too good, so I didn't dress up. It made me sad, but I just didn't have enough energy to be in costume. I dressed in my cozy clothes and sat on the steps to hand out candy. I was glad it was a warmer night because all of this thyroid stuff makes me freezing cold all the time. I just pray that they will be able to kill all the cancer with the radiation stuff and not have to do surgery and radiation again. This isn't my favorite thing. I even missed two parties this last week. I hate missing parties. I tell people that I'm always good for a party, but not this time. There will be more parties. When I really feel yucky I just imagine myself being in St George for Thanksgiving, warm, relaxing by the pool, sitting in a nice condo cleaned by someone else. :) If the timing of all of this works out (which I'm planning on) I will totally be there!